| - Foreve Love - Another just passed n, I still feel like Im slipping away from LIFE!!!... 
Well, just came back from Church. Played for worship, and well overrall is ok....THANK God..:) SOmetimes, while playing for worship, I felt like , Im stuck in between of focusing of worshiping God and focusing on my playing and focusing on me when Im on stage. SOmethimes, PRIDE does creep into me and its not a good feeling in the end of the day, and always have to ask God for forgiveness on that. Really, where I am now is really the GRACE of God that brought my this far and honestly, me being in the worship ministry and playing on stage on weekend celebration is something I don t deserve it. Well, there might people wanan be in my position, but its not easy ( which its seem to be easy).
Dun talk bout during church time, sometimes even outside church ( which is others day beside weekend), do I really live a life which reflect Jesus?? and the answer, most of the time is "NO"! ..... but one thing I really thank God is the strenght of hanging on to HIM. Striving to be like Him, and today sermon by Ps Mike Ngui was really relevant! IM not going to write the whole sermon  ... but just what came to me. Well, today was the last chapter of the book of Ephesian ( well, church is doing the series in the Book Of Ephesian ).. and today was bout the Armour of God and how Apostle Paul told us to wear it and stand firm. We are in a war, well not of the flesh but int he Spiritual Realm, and everyday is a war. The devil never fail to distract us every moment when he have the chance to do it. When ps Mike spoke bout that, I said to myself ' Yeaa..I knwo that...and AMEN to that!" but on the second thought...a question "pop" to me..." but..are we aware of it all the time?"....
Looking at my life, the bumming around....and doing things that are less important and not doing things that are important....and getting.. frustrated at it.....got hook on the net for hours... playing Need For Speed Underground....not doing my quiet time/prayers.... And my Spiritual eyes, just open as I sat there in the hall....looking at my life...at this moment....MAN Man man...... ..... the ENEMY have already made his move, but I wasn t aware of it. The feeling of guilt that I felt all the time, was what he wants me to feel.  .... Felt like I have lost touch wit God....but somehow, I felt that He still around me...coz no matter what i do, He will still be there for me.....and that will never change and that is my GOD!.... DId I put on the armour of God as what Apostle Paul instruct us to do....I ask myself. I did I guess.. he he  .... I said that because...I still wanna hold on to Him and stand firm..even though ... I felt guilty. And I wanna turn back to God...coz I know He's always there wit open arms.
Ps Mike mention bout wrestling ( well not physically but spiritually), and thinking bout it.....when we wrestle ( as we see in WWF).... there are always close contact during wrestling....and if we bring back to our life, everyday we wrestle wit life just to make ends meet. We get hurt and tired....and wanna give up ( sometimes).... but in the end of every wrestle of life....of a certain period in our life....we intend to overcome the problems..( well as for me I am) for me , in every wrestle of life, i get tired, hurt but, as I keep hanging on to Jesus.....and never give up for I hold strongly in the promise He have for us ( He have a plan to prosper us and not to harm us).Wit the strenght I have is not my own, but my God who is a BIG and strong God. I can t do the things Im doing now on my own strenght...its all about Him.
How strong are u in god is not, how much u know bout the bible and how many verses u can remeber ( well ... Im not saying its all bad..) but...how much u know God thru His Word which is the bible. We can read or study the bible and know lots of teaching on how to live, or to do this or not to do this, but if we do not know God thru the Word.....we are not having a personal relationship with Him. It like when we are reading a book and know the contents but not the aurthor. One verse can tell or inteprete more than one thing....but have u wonder, what is God telling u thru that verse at this point of time, or r we just taking what we think we understand/know bout that verse and think that what God say to us NOW!!..( sorry, bear with me. I know its a bit confusing.) Maybe, I came to a point where... all things is not important as my relationship with God. DO you love God or ur ministry more?? he he e..sometimes, I dun even dare to think bout that!! But one thing for sure I can said is that, no matter who u are and what u have done....and when u choose to turn back to God and humble urself....He will be there....and when u turn to Him for strenght...He will be there....because that is something...will never change. He never fail to give me peace and strength to go thru what i been thru....:) PRAISE GOD!!
Ohh well, I better stop now.. coz I can t stop if i go on... he he he he  .... save the rest for later yar??:) Theres lots of thing to share and its EXCITING THINGs... becoz I have an EXCITING and HAPPENING GOD.  To you all out there...thanks for reading this ...untill then....GOD BLESS and have a blessed day!!!!!......... |
H EH EH E ...... Learning... new things bout Latin music... ha ha ha ah...( See Im really "Ku Ku" d 
) .... Beside doing that, did abit of guitar practise... he h e.... having Timmy amps wit me... a Marshall G 80 R CD...combo. HA ha HA h AH AHa .... like the sound alot. Plug in my Epiphone Les Paul Standard Goldtop into it and ..man.... the tone is sooo nice....and sweet!!!!......hmmm HMmmmmmmmmm.....
